Stop Spinning The Wheels
Sometimes it’s okay to just let things be.
The tendency to always be advancing, always trying to move somewhere, has been overwhelming in my life. Being stuck on “go” is exhausting. But somehow I always find myself in this mode. Every action is a piece of a grand scheme to get somewhere different than where I am. It’s almost as if somehow, I’ve been taught to attach my worth to my productivity.
This is how ridiculous it gets: the other day I made some tea for myself and put on a record. I wanted to simply enjoy the record and tea without distraction, and I almost couldn’t do it! I was wondering if the record would be one my friends want to listen to, or if it’s one only I’d enjoy. I pondered putting tea in my honey, even though I didn’t want anything sweet, but I knew it’s good for my throat and I’d been feeling hoarse. I started wondering if I could be doing better things, or if writing and listening to vinyl alone in my room was an efficient use of my time.
The wheels kept spinning.
Every thought was focused on how this current action could help me get somewhere else in the future. It wasn’t enough to simply enjoy what was in front of me.
And then, I took the first sip of tea and realized I’m a human, not a machine.
Which means I need to just let things be sometimes. If my every effort is invested in making something else, something bigger happen, then I’ll never enjoy what’s right here in front of me. I don’t have to stew over all the things I need to do today. I know it would help me out tomorrow if I piled on the workload. But right now, I could let that concern be. In that moment, I enjoyed the record I was listening to. And sitting down listening with no other distractions present was a nice change of pace in my busy day.
Sometimes, it’s okay to stop turning the wheels and let things be as they are.
Usually, I’m so bad at this. I have to intentionally designate a moment to turn off my mind and relax. But when I do, I realize most of my distractions and worries aren’t as fierce as they seemed. Sometimes I have to repeat to myself “Drew, it’s okay to relax here. You can stop spinning the wheels”. Our identity shouldn’t stem from our ability to perform and be productive. That’s not what it means to be human. However, a significant part of being human is being able to rest well, as well as being able to engage and enjoy the present moment.
Maybe you’re like me. Maybe you find yourself incessantly worrying about various things, always trying to assemble a better future in your head. If that’s you, hear me out…
Take 10 minutes, and just sit… No music. No netflix. No internet. Just you, and the silent air. And say to yourself, “It’s okay to relax, I can stop spinning the wheels”. Maybe close your eyes. Maybe be with God, not actively praying about your worries necessarily, but just sitting in His presence.
What did you experience during those 10 minutes? Did you find it hard to sit still for that long? Comment below!