My whole life I’ve wanted excellence
but this intention to be excellent is my detriment
because no matter the outcome I’m not content.
Always wanting to be more than I currently am
to climb higher than I currently stand
and to receive only praise and no reprimands
to say “I am the man”
because I have achieved what few men can.
But the stress of this attitude towards life has made me crash and burn
and my stomach churns
because I now know the hard lesson I’ve yet to learn.
Never sharing myself fully because I haven’t cultivated it perfectly.
I’m a perfection-less perfectionist.
Someone whose life may seem directionless
because he couldn’t overcome the fear of risk.
And so here I stand,
two paths before my eyes
One is of the man who chose risk, who took a fall, got back up, and still stands tall.
And the other is of the man who played it safe his whole life
and at the end realized he took the biggest risk of all.
Because not taking risks is a greater risk
because at the end of it all you’re left with is:
That’s no life I want to live.
To be fulfilled I must choose risk.
The things that scare me make me feel alive
The things that hurt me, help me thrive
The reality of uncertainty is present until you die
So I: ask myself this…
What are your passions?
The things that fill your cup?
What are your pains?
The things that shake you up.
What are your thoughts and reactions?
The things that make you up?
What are your fears?
The things that wake you up.
Have you had enough of waiting?
Because every day is an invitation to start creating something new.
So I’m asking myself and I’m asking you
What is the world waiting for you to do?
Written in March, 2016 when I was frustrated at how boring life was. When things get that way, it’s because I’m playing it too safe. I do that way more than I’d like to.
© 2016 Drew Loewen